Vision Boards 2023

Vision Boards 2023 whooo!!!

THIS YEAR 2023, I’M CALLING IN HEALING. NOT FOR ME BUT EVERYONE ELSE, I FOUND MY PEACE MOSTLY & I WISH THE SAME UNDERSTANDING &, PEACE. THE SAME FOR THE PEOPLE I LOVE. I WANT EVERYONE TO FIX IT, IN MY JANET VOICE FIX IT… IM PUTTING THIS FIRST. BECAUSE UNTIL U, HEAL U, WE CANT HAVE A SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIP, TRULY FIX WHATS BROKEN W EVERYONE TRULY. HIDING HOW THEY FEEL & HURTING, ACTING OUT OF THAT INSTEAD OF A PLACE OF LOVE. HAVE U HARDED UR HEART, JEALOUSY, LETTING OTHER PEOPLE IN UR EAR DESTROY FAMILIES, FRIENDSHIPS

WHEN ARE WE GONNA UNMASK? STOP WITH THE NEGATIVE CYCLES & HEAL? TAKE RESPONSIBILITY? LIFE IS TO SHORT!!! IS THIS HOW YOU WANT TO LEAVE THINGS? DO YOU NOT HAVE PEOPLE YOU LOVE IN YOUR LIFE? DUE TO PRIDE, NOT WANTING TO APOLOGIZE. HAVE MANY PEOPLE HAVE SETTLED OUTSIDE OF THE PERSON THEY TRULY WANTED TO B WITH OUT OF EVERYTHING ELSE BUT LOVE? PRIDE, NOT OWNING UP TO UR $HIT, NOT SEEKING HELP, NOT GIVNG THE SAME UNDERSTANDING THEY GAVE U, NOT BE ABLE TO LET IT GO, HAVING A WRONG PERCEPTION OF EVENTS. IS THERE A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE? NEVER HAVING THE DIFFICULT CONVERSATION. WHY ARE U MAD? HURT, SABOTAGING YOUR RELATIONSHIPS? DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU DESERVE IT? DONT LIKE TO USE THE WORD DESERVE PEOPLE DONT DESERVE ALOT OF THINGS. BUT HOW DO YOU LOOK AT LOVE? IS THAT SOMETHING THATS GETTING MISCOMMUNICATED? HAVE YOU LET CERTAIN THINGS IN SO THAT PEOPLE WILL LOVE YOU. CHANGED WHO YOU ARE? HIDE WHO YOU ARE FOR OTHERS? ITS TIME TO GET YOU BACK, TEACH PEOPLE HOW TO LOVE & SUPPORT YOU. TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR PART EVEN IF ITS ACCEPPTING THE BEHAVIOR, LOSING YOU. BE STRONG BUT VULNERABLE. SHOW PEOPLE BY YOUR WORDS & ACTIONS. ASK THE SAME. TIME TO BE LOVED ON. TIME FOR YOU TO BE TAKEN CARE OF. ITS TIME TO RESET.

FIRST THE FACT THAT PEOPLE EQUATE LOVE TO CONTROL. NEEDS TO STOP IN EVERY RELATIONSHIP BUSINESS, PERSONAL TWO PEOPLE CHOOSE TO BE THERE EVERYDAY. USE THAT TO RESET. APPRECIATION, WHAT WOULD IT FEEL LIKE NOT TO HAVE THIS PERSON? IF THAT PERSON ALREADY GONE, WHAT IS THAT YOU MISS? THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT OF MY LIFE I TRULY MISS. I LIKED OUR RELATIONSHIP. ITS SAD THAT EVERYTHING BUT LOVE 🫶🏽 PLAYED APART IN THE MEMORIES LOST, TIME LOST. HIT ME IF I WAS IMPORTANT TO YOU, YOU WANT TO FIX IT THERES NOTHING IM HOLDING ON TO. GONNA SPEAK MY TRUTH THOUGH & ACKNOWLEDGED ANY PART OF HURTING ANY FEELING DISTANCING MYSELF

A GOOD WAY TO START THE PROCESS IS REMEMBERING THE GOOD TIME WHY U WERE … IN THE FIRST PLACE. IS WHAT HAPPENED THE HURT MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE LOVE? IF NOT WHY NOT FIX IT? BUT DONT BEAT YOURSELF UP IF YOU TRY & IT DOES’T WORK. DON’T CLOSE THE DOOR THOUGH. NOT EVERYONE WALKED AT SAME TIME, THEY MAY NOT BE READY YET. LET THEM KNOW WHEN THERE READY HOPEFULLY THEY WILL TAKE UR FEELINGS INTO CONSIDERATION WITH LATER THOUGHTS. I THINK GOD MOVES YOU SOMETIMES THAT MEANS, NEW.

HOPEFULLY I CAN TAKE MY OWN ADVICE. ITS DIFFICULT BUT THE CONVERSATION HAVE BEEN HAVING & I THINK RELATIONSHIP ARE BETTER. BC THEY MIGHT NOT BE READY. BUT I AM SO ITS STILL HEALING BC I SPOKE MY TRUTH THE GOOD BAD & UGLY . I FEEL MORE HEARD BECAUSE IM NOT LEAVING OUT PARTS OF STORIES PROTECTING PEOPLE. THE WRONG PEOPL, NOT NOT SPEAKING UP BC THEY GET UPSET OR THREATENING TO LEAVE. MOSTLY PROTECTING THEM, U, NOT WANTING PEOPLE TO JUDGE U. SO I TAKE THE HIT, INDIA IS THE BAD GUY, ONLY BC I DIDNT SPEAK THE WHOLE TRUTH. MY DAUGHTER KNOWS EVERYTHING SHE ALL THAT MATTERED NOW I DONT HAVE TO PROTECT THEM. U. IM PUTTING IT OUT THERE. U COME AT ME IM NOT HOLDING BACK MY TRUTH, MY MOUTH, PHYSICALLY. U PUT UR HANDS ON ME, THREATEN ME NO NEED FOR ME TO SAY MUCH U GONNA SEE EXACTLY WHO I AM. UR GONNA GET EXACTLY WHAT U BEEN PUSHING FOR. THE THING ABOUT THERAPY PEOPLE FEEL LIKE IT SUPPOSE TO B THIS CHANGE. THE CHANGE IS MY CONFIDENCE IS BACK,.{ UR RIGHT I AM SOMEBODY, SPECIAL, LIL CELEB, WHO I AM SHOULDN'T MAKE ME A TARGET, NEVER STOPPING, IM KIND, SEXY GONNA STAY THAT WAY BC ITS HOW I FEEL. BUT I AM A GANSTA RAISED THAT WAY, WE DONT GET BULLLIED, I DONT MIND BEING THE UNDERDOG IN A SENSE, UNDERESTIMATED WHAT I DO MIND IS THE CONSISTENCY OF ATTACKS FROM EVERYONE, SO IM ADDRESSING IT, IS IT A WARNING TAKE IT HOW U WANT, THAT DOESNT CONCERN ME, HOW I MOVE DOES, GONNA STAY ME, I LOVE ALL OF ME, SORRY UR….} I CAN REACT KNOWING ITS HOW I TRULY FEEL, WHEN UR PTSD UR MAKING OR NOT MAKING EVERYTHING JUST FEELS OVERWHELMING. IM PROUD OF MYSELF FOR STAYING & STEERING CONVERSATIONS TO MORE UNDERSTANDING & LOVE EVEN IF WE AGREE, BUT HAVE DIFFERENT VIEWS. WE BOTH FEEL HEARD & AS A RESULT OF UNDERSTANDING OF OTHERS PERSONS PAIN ALSO WHAT THEY NEED FROM ME. SORRY IF I SHUT DOWN & REMOVE THAT FROM OUR RELATIONSHIP, THAT WASN'T OKAY. ALWAYS GONNA LOVE THE KIDS THEY CAN ALWAYS CALL ME NO MATTER OUR RELATIONSHIP. STOP PUTTING THEM N BS OR USE THEM. THAT LOVE IS GINUWINE ON MY PART. ALWAYS LOVE U 🥀SOME FROM A DISTANCE DOESN'T TAKE AWAY WHAT WE SHARED ILL ALWAYS TREASURE EVERY MEMORY, MOMENT. HOW YOU MOVE FORWARD IS YOUR CHOICE. I MADE MINES. HAPPY NEW YEAR. LETS MAKE THIS MAKE SENSE…

DON’T ASK ANYTHING OF ME YOU ARE NOT WILLING TO GIVE IN RETURN PERIOD. EVEN ASKING HOW IM DOING. IF YOUR NOT THERE FOR ME DONT EXPECT ME ITHER. BUT WE DONT THROW AWAY SOULS ALSO SOOOOOO, MY DAUGHTER REMINDED ME I SAID THAT. SO IM PREYING THERE IS RESTORATION.