WHEN ENOUGH IS ENOUGH {Had to get somethings off my... before i move on 2024}

Now Eeeeeeverybody knows I have tried to play the peace card. But just because I am healed does not mean everybody else sees the vision. Its like I am kickback but people mistake that for quite. Never really realized that. Want to move forward, fix what I can, Fuk what I can not. You know new beginnings AGAIN; but still at least God has blessed us to. It seems like people like to I don't know. Like i been called everything but a Child of God, Attacked in so many different ways. Like wtf is wrong with people like I'm not that invested in anyone's life like I don't Give A Fuk. Maybe that's the Gansta n me. We die for less where I'm from. Like its to the point i am like fuk peace & fuk u period. How we got here. I don't know if I should get into it But for sure NEVER CALL ME A FUKING LIAR, BEEN ALL KINDA HOES, B, BAD MOM ALL LAUGHABLE LIKE TF. BUT A LIAR YOU WILL PISS ME OFF. I STAND IN MY TRUTH, MY HONESTY BECAUSE ITS RARE. I RATHER BE WHAT UR NOT. A REAL VERSION OF SOMETHING REAL NOT PRETEND FOR ANYONE. LIKE WHO THE FUK R U? I GOT TO IMPRESS ?NAW NOT ME, I AM SOMEBODY. EVEN IF I WASNT, B I DONT BOW DOWN, GANSTAS DONT GET GANSTERED. YOU FEEL ME SOOOOOOOO, IM SOOOOOOO, NUMB I DONT EVEN FEEL $HIT {GROWING UP W SO MUCH LOSS U BECOME NUMB I GUESS ITS TOOO MUCH TO PROCESS OR SOMETHING U JUST STOP} & WHEN I DO FEEL OR RESPOND ITS COMING OUT WRONG BECAUSE IM SOOOOO UNGULFED IN WORRY FOR AMOR. BUT I DO KNOW LIKE NO ONE GETS A PASS. I THINK ITS OK TO FINALLY PUT UR FOOT DOWN EVEN IF THAT MEANS YOU LOSS MOSTLY EVERYBODY BC FROM WHERE IM STANDING NO ONE WAS IN IT LIKE ME JUST TO BE IN IT LIKE EVERYBODY HAD ALTERNATIVE MOTIVES BECAUSE WHY ???? WHEN I NEED ITS NOT MET WITH THE SAME RESPONSE, CARE, SHOW THE FUK UPNESS, LIKE??? ANY WAY I PUT IT IN VIDEO BEACUSE HONESTLY I THINK THE ONLY WAY IM HOLDING TOGETHER OR NOT. I DID HAVE A WEAK MOMENT AND REACHED OUT AND ASKED FOR HELP BUT I BEEN STRONG THRU ALL OF THIS. SO THINK I WAS ALLOWED THAT EVEN THOUGHT THINGS MAY NOT ALWAYS LAND THE WAY I INTEND. SMH

ANYWAY, LAST YEAR NO THE YEAR BEFORE END OF YEAR MY HOMEGIRL REACHED OUT NOT HOME GIRL SORRY. LIKE WHY U BE SO DISTANT. WE LINKED, I TOLD HER LIKE I TELL EVERYBODY ELSE LIKE B U WAS TRIPPING TRYING TO KICK ME WHILE U THOUGHT I WAS DOWN. NEVER REALLY DOWN BUT THATS NOT FOR PEOPLE TO KNOW. I WILL NEVA BE KNOW THAT. ANYWAY AT END OF NITE THE CONVO CAME UP AND I TOLD HER WHAT I FELT. AND SAID, TO BE HONEST YOUR FRIEND SEXUALLY ASSULTED ME. WHEN WE WENT OUT, I WOKE UP DRUNK SLEEP; HE WAS DOWN THERE. NOW I PUT MYSELF IN SITUATIONS THAT WE CHOPP UP EVEN THO WE WERE VIOLATED, YOU ALL HAVE THAT SLIZE BALL THAT YOU WILL, NEVA , I SAY NEVA FUK WIT N UR RIGHT MIND. THEY WAIT UNTIL, THAT BREAK UP, U FEELING LOW, EXTRA DRUNK MOMENT TO MAKE A SLEEZE BALL MOVE... NOT THAT LOW SELF ESTEEM MF SMALL DIK MF. WE SEE Y... LOL U NEED THAT MOMENT. ANY WAY TOLD THE B WHAT HAPPENED. WHY THIS B PICK UP THE PHONE CALL HIM, HE LIKE NAW ME AND NEVA, SHE TELLING ME TO BE QUITE... WHEN I SAY I NOT GOOD SOMETIMES AT REACTING IN THE MOMENT. BC ALL I FEEL IS MYSELF GETTING HOT AND THE SCENE GOING BLACK. MEANING I AM ABOUT TO FUK U ALL WAY UP; LIKE AND NOT KNOW THAT UR N MY HAND B. HE LIKE NAW. WHY THE B HANG UP AND WAS LIKE NAW HE COULD NOT HAVE BE GAG CLUTCH UR PEARLS.... BC THE n BE AT HER KIDS BDAY PARTIES. B I ALMOST FELL OUT. GUESS THE B THOUGHT SHE HAD ONE U ONE ME BC I WENT THRU A TIME BC I DONT GIVE A FUK HOW FUKED IM AM B NO B NO NIGGA WILL EVER B AT MY LOWEST B I AM STILL... LET ME NOT GET STARTED B WILL ALWAYS B BETTER THAN U B... THE B THEN HAD THE NERVE TO CALL ME AFTER THAT LIKE WHY U NOT ANSWERING MY CALL. MY PHONE WAS BROKE BUT IT WAS ETRA BROKE FOR THAT B. 1ST B DONT EVER TRY ME BY SILENCING ME I DONT PLAY THAT $HIT AT ALL. SECONDLY B U TRIED IT THE FIRST TIME U THOUGHT U HAD A SECOND, OKAY. SAME $HIT IN MEMPHIS HOW MANY DIFFERENT WAYS A MF GONNA ATTACK ME THEN BLAME ME AND IF I STICK UP FOR MYSELF THEN WE SEE THAT THEY NEVA HAD MY BACK AS LONG AS IM ALLOWING THE DISRESPECT THEN ITS COOL, IF IM KICKING BACK ITS COOL, IF I FUK YO ASS UP THEN ITS ME... ITS GONNA STAY ME BC NO B AND I MEAN NO B, BN DONT GIVE A FUK WHO YOU ARE NO ONES GONNA KEEP SPINNING AND MAKING UP SHIT BC I AM A GANSTA I DONT RUN MY MOUTH BUT U DO HUH B, BN SO NO THIS IS NOT ME CONVERTING THE BEST THING ABOUT THERAPY IS THAT YOUR BACK TO 0 OR SO YOU KNOW HOW UR FEELING WHEN UR LIKE IN IT HEAD SPINNING U DONT KNOW LIKE UR FEELING ARE EVERYWHERE SO EVEN THO THAT PERSON MAY DERSERVE IT IN THAT MOMENT BC UR MIND IS RACING IT JUS FEELS IDK LIKE UR WRONG IF IF UR NOT. ANYWAY THERES MORE GONNA HAVE TO WRITE IN SEGMENTS BC IT IS ALOT AND I AM TRULY NOT LIKE I JUST DONT BE ON THAT BUT THEN SOMETHING ELSE HAPPENS OR SOMEONE ELSE COMES LIKE.... BUT GUESS WHAT I DID SOMETHING SOOOOO HOPEFULLY EVERYONE WILL GET THEY MOMENT LMAO... WE TURN LEMONS TO LEMONADE

i am calling in a Miracle New Life, New Love, Healthy